Heart Break

Friday night, Lucy left for her new home. I cried... a lot. I'm told she's "happy as a pig in shit". I guess that should make me feel better but I'm selfish. I really miss her. I miss waking up in the middle of the night with Lucy snuggled up as close as she could get. I miss playing ball with her. She makes this really weird guttural sound when she runs after the ball. I miss knowing that I still have someone to count on. I miss my best friend. I feel like I've betrayed her. I'm disappointed in the whole situation and I'm upset with myself. I wish I could have made it work. I wish that she and the baby could coexist. I wish that her new home wasn't in Richmond. It's killing me even to see this picture now. I know that I won't have to worry as much now. It just hurts.